It was a seminar on whether antidepressants had to be given or not to a suicidal person. I was tricked to attend it by a teacher who wanted to prove that I was suicidal. Was I ? Nope. I was beginning to see that rage was deserved by others not me. All guilt was raped out of me. This teacher wanted to prove his innocence after using a group to flood me with reminders of trauma….He colluded with a hacker and was offended by an independent thinker struggling to retrieve a buried self , quietly writing at midnight amidst violent interrogations,unaware of Trojan Horse virus in the wires. What was more violent explicit interrogations or implicit mind meddling ? Here I was , refusing to split Dr.Jekyll and Actor Hide…..or Actor Jekyll and Dr.Hide.