You told me I could cross that line
And you would be there even in the winter
You told me I could stay in a guest house
And you would rescue me in a white car
You told me cakes were baked to be eaten
What was the point of having it and not eating ?
You flogged some demons in the toilet
As though they were my demons
You banged the doors against the storm
As if I was in a ship wreck losing that last signal
Your car glared in the parking lot .
A little boy’s Teddy bear kissed me.
When all was dark you smiled at me
As though you were better than a brother
Finally I felt my innocence melt
And that epiphany ….oh….it could have been
a pleasure to lose my innocence…. !
You put a pillow under my head ,calling my fantasy
Then you called me to sit by your side
Because it was all just a play ….
I was not playing ….I left.